2.1.2010

I can't believe January is already over and that my baby man will be 2 months old tomorrow! This year is speeding by too.

It's a Monday. Really early too. Like 7:30 in the morning early. Hannah is all ready for school. Waiting on Wendy to get here to give her a ride. I'm still so sleepy, so as soon as Hannah leaves I will probably lay back down with Colby.

I usually don't hate people. I really don't. I try to see good in everyone, but dammit Earl makes it so damn easy for me to hate him. Posting shit on his Myspace calling me a lemonhead and saying I'm a dumbass and a bitch. He can seriously try all he wants to deny it, but Colby is his son. I have no reason to lie about that. Like, if there was any doubt in my mind about Earl being Colby's Dad I wouldn't have let him be around Colby at all. He wouldn't have been allowed in the room with me when I gave birth or anything. Yanno, he will be the one to regret not being around. I'm not missing a damn thing. :)

It's also been said that I'm jealous. Haha...okay. Jealous of what? A crazy ass who slits her wrists and a deadbeat who can't use a toothbrush? Right...the only thing that psycho has that I am jealous of is her own house and a nice car. The end. I could go to the bar tomorrow and find ten "men" just like Earl's scrubby ass, so I ain't jealous of shit.

Anyway though. I've been talking to Jamie since New Years. I think I like him, but at the same time I think I want to push him away. I hate that I do that. We'll see how things end up.